More disappointment

So we began our FET cycle without any problems and as always come day 10 my lining was a perfect 9.8mm.  Transfer was booked for the Wednesday after and I was really nervous.  We had never only had one frostie left, always at least two and one normally doesn't make it.  That made me so worried that if this one doesn't make it then there were none to fall back on.  Well my nightmare came true.  I was at work until 1pm and transfer was scheduled for 3pm.  There were no missed calls so I felt relieved, 15 minutes later my phone rang and my heart sunk.  Sure enough it was the lab ringing to tell me our only embryo didn't survive.  I didn't cope very well with this news.  I still went to my appointment but instead of having a transfer I was having a "what's next" talk with my dr.  He sent me for some bloods even though I have had them done before.  He was just as upset as I was.  There were some colourful words from him and tears from me.  I just couldn't believe this was happening.  I asked him if I needed to start considering donor eggs and his reply was "I will be very forth coming if that needed to be the case and I can say that I cannot see that on the horizon" this was a relief as I am not ready to have to consider that.  So after a hug from my dr I was on my way with the plan to start our fifth fresh collection cycle once my period arrives.  I can't believe I am doing the whole injection protocol for the fifth time (well technically the seventh as two got cancelled).