I find this part of the journey really hard to try and explain to others around me. I want a baby of our own so badly, it's the only thing I think about. For the last 18 months of TTC through IVF I seemed to have put my life on hold. The scenarios would begin, "if I get pregnant this round..." but it was so hard not to do. I need to know I am doing everything right, right with the medications, supplements etc. I'm exercising, I'm eating right. But then I realised I wasn't doing much for my mind and my thinking. I sourced some good meditations from my TTC sisters and my personal trainer who also teaches meditation. I started putting aside half an hour each night before bed and I feel great! There are some days I miss and if I do I go to sleep with relaxation music going instead. I really feel this is going to be beneficial to me going into this round as it is going to be so hard after so many failures to think positively.
I also am one who needs visualisation things too. I had already done a wish board and it was in my bedroom next to the bed, I had all my little "lucky" trinkets next to it and now I have added "Peanut." While visiting J we were shopping for little gifts for some of our IVF sisters that we met on instagram, when we stumbled across a "build a bear" shop and went straight in and both had the thought straight away to make our future babies a bear which would also help us along the way. It's all these little things that are going to help me think positively about this round.
